After the Contractor mission

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*Minutes after congratulating and excusing himself from the Contractor hunting job team, Souji walks out of the bathroom on his floor of the dorms. His expression's normal, but he's a lot paler than usual. People who are used to a lot of wild partying or psychological distress will possibly recognize the signs that he was engaging in one of those two things.*

> You're not sure whether you're more upset by the gratuitous violence, the gratuitous violence against small children...

> ...or the fact that you weren't bothered by it at all until you got back.

> You seriously consider not going to that world anymore.

Comments

[am177.livejournal.com]

*Vimes has seen a lot of inexperienced watchmen stare death in the face. He knew the signs.*

It doesn't make any sense, does it?

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None of it does.

I like to think I'm good at keeping a cool head, but how I acted when we were there was...

[am177.livejournal.com]

It gets easier, after a while. It never gets easy, but eventually familiarity turns the knife in gut into merely a punch to the gut. When you stop feeling it, that's when you should start to get worried.

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...

That is why I'm worried, sir.

[am177.livejournal.com]

You did know the effects of turning into a contractor, right?

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Being told about it's one thing...

[am177.livejournal.com]

It's not a pleasant thought that just going to these places can change your head around so much, is it? None of the worlds I've been to have done much to me, but I figure it's only a matter of time.

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The changes just hit kind of close to home, that's all. I think I'll be fine now if I just avoid that place for a little while.